I'll work my way back to the highest level. Soccer is life. For now, I need a few things: 1. Adidas Predator Absolute 2. Adidas Sala 3. Dunlop Crybaby Wah Pedal 4. Shinguards
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Ministry night was good. Helped me relax. The praise and worship was awesome and it kinda made me think why I let the my old self out. I thought it was behind me already. Guess that complacency proved costly. I thought i had done enough before to be someone new, but I've really let myself down by allowing my old self to come back. What was I thinking? I dont know. Why I felt that way? I really have no idea. I hate times like these when I allow my selfish nature to show itself. I cant stand it. I'm disappointed with myself. All I know was that I let everything out in the pervious post. Simply aimlessly ranting about with no purpose. That just isn't me. I never put any thought into what i was typing and it jus came out the way it is. Dang. Sometimes having a brother like mine rocks. He's the one who actually helps me chill, helps me hang loose and relax. Though he's only 14, I think he's a great guy. Well, I just feel much better now. Listened to the testimonies f
I never really felt like being around anybody today. It just felt so emotionless, so monotonous. Hardly spoke a word unless I needed to. I'm really tired. At least i managed to get some work off my hands today during break. Well, sometimes just being away from people feels really good. To just be alone, doing work in the mac lab just now, felt really good. Anyway, thanks guys for letting me know. Never really noticed it about myself but it might abit of a bad habit from sec school or just me randomly stoning, especially when I'm tired. Oh well, at least you let me know now so i can do something about it right away. But it really made me think, maybe being born without eyes would have been better. Then I wouldnt have to bother about deciphering colours and what not. I wish I never had to open my eyes every morning knowing they just aren't normal and that nothing can be dont about it. I iwsh I never had to wander in a world of clours I don't know of. I wish i never had to
Cos all of the stars have faded away... Tiring day at school. Projects from 10 to 1. Lunch, then lessons all the way till 6. Bowling trainig from 8 till 11. 12 hours out, Not a complete hour of rest. Goodness. Thank God school's not been a bitch. Bowling training wasnt that good either. Bowled first block of 3 games. 146, 189, 140. Pathetic. Uncle Lawrence was expecting the hook bowlers to struggle, which includes me cos I'm a hook bowler. So while he was explaining the lane conditions and stuff and said that hook bowlers would probably struggle with the house oiling, he turned to me and said "Augustine, you shouldn't be struggling." Just for that moment I was left kinda speechless. Was he expecting something from me? Somehow I get the feeling that he feels I can be in that top 8 to represent TP. But like he said, all I'm lacking is a plastic ball for my spares. Not that I dont wanna get one, but I just don't have the cash. Sigh. Anyhow, I guess I did okay
Sizzling. If only... Thailand, as it was when i took this shot. Random photos. I'm tired. So many bloody deadlines. No money. No time for soccer tmr. so much work to finish. Someone get me a marshall amp, that gibson angus young and a whole collection of boss pedals right now. I swear I feel like ripping some mad rock shit. Need to destress.
Why do so many things have to happen to me? I cant bloody reognise the damn colours, Ive got G6PD blood deficiency. I cant be near moth balls cos of this and jus now in the cab on the way home, guess what? it was filled with moth balls and it got to a point where i just felt like puking in the cab. GDF Lecture wasnt easy for me. To sit through a whole lecture on colour, knowing that everyone else can see and feel what the teacher is talking about while I sit there, trying my best to make out the colours i see. Its fucking frustrating. So many things I cant do. People think its fun and interesting cos i can "see" the world differently cos i'm colourblind. Honestly, it sucks. I hate the feeling. You guys just dont understand how sad and hurtful it can be. Its difficult trying to spend each day figuring out what colour is what. One moment i can recognise them, the next moment I cant. Just let me be normal for one day. Let me see the world as how everybody sees it. I feel hel
i love you no less as a friend. but this is one thing that i would really want you to look at. I respect your opinions and comments but its more of the way you put your point across. The tone and the manner. Like what I said before, I treat you as a good friend, but this is what I see that may need some thinking about. You gotta admit that nobody is perfect. Both you and I have imperfections, and we need to look at what we lack and do something about it. I honestly hate times like these when things go patchy. Perhaps both of us could try to be more sensitive to each other and to others as well. I respect you alot and I do look up to you as an individual. But I know that I'm not the only one who has noticed your temper and the way you spoke to me. I'm leeting you know these so that you will be aware of how you've affected others in one way or another. I know that your intentions are good, but the tone in which you make some remarks may sometimes mask your intentions so much
If you read this post, this is what I have to say to you. First of all, you thought I was angry when I was in fact feeling sick, and when i remembered an important piece of information and told you, you got angry. Whats more is that you complained that I always tell you things last minute. I do not think that this is a fair judgement and I don't think that you have the right to be upset with me over it. Likewise, you said that I only told you that the deadline for submission of work was 12.30pm when it was just 2 minutes away. Like hello? Get a life. Its not like I keep track of deadlines every damn minute of the day. At least say a thank you or be grateful that someone actually remembered that we needed to submit our work. What do you think would happen if I hadnt remembered it? The way you talk to people sometimes can turn them off right away. Till now, even though I've talked to you about it, I still HATE the way that you replied me when I asked an honest question. "Ar
Prayer. The greatest thing that happened in life. He is a consuming fire and the flames burn now deep in my soul. Yes, our God. He is a consuming fire. He reaches inside and melts down this cold heart of stone. Did you realise down inside of you, there is a flame? Did you ever try to let it burn? How the lyrics of a song mean so much...Think about it.
2-1 against YV united. lousy ref. dirty team. they way YV played just reinforced the way i feel about "them". i wont say i hate them but i really really dislike "them". arrogant, cocky, cheaters. Anyway dinner on saturday was good. Had some interesting dishes but i really liked the oysters with cheese. haha. then talked about christianity, catholicism and life. interesting stuff. but it just made me feel a little upset. not because of what asher or pearl said, but because of what the catholic church's state is. its so dead, so lifeless. there's just nobody doing anything right now. i swear i'm gonna do something about it. im gonna do as much as i can to get the catholic church go-ers, especially the youth, to get off their asses and do something for God. It really isnt easy being a Catholic around so many fired up christians. I feel jealous because they have so many people around them enjoying praise and worship and stuff, but when it comes to catholics
in mac lab now...bored. ng kwee hoon is dam boring. as you can see, at this point, i really cant be bothered about typing properly in caps. so yeah. anyway, i've got two players that i wanna add to my list of favourite players. and yes, they're italian or sort of. no matter how much i dislike the italian in the run up to the final i've gotta admit that andrea pirlo and mauro camoranesi caught my eye. really cool players. so i've been listening to this band called seven glory. i really like their songs. great rock music. excellent tracks to jam along. finally some new songs to play. ok kwee hoon is back. "lesson" begins. blah. so freaking slack la. might as well not come to school. oh and guess wad, there's a freaing 3 hour break before lecture at 4. wasting my dam time.
Italy just spoilt the world cup for me. Darn Italians. For all their great food and culture, I just think that they're a team pocketed with several cheaters. Nothing more. Not worthey of a place in the World Cup Final. Anyway personally, I think I've been under performing alot for SLK. Fucking pissed with the way I'm playing now. I don't know why its so fucking hard to raise my game. It just gets to a point where you kinda feel you've had enough of shitty games. The one guy thats really doing a great job is Tian. The perfect example of a team player.