I feel lousy about myself, I feel absolutely terrible, I feel like I'm losing purpose, I feel very distant. Seriously, fuck this. No, no. I mean FUCK THIS.
Finally. Dad allowed me to drive on my own. Funny thing is, I cant touch the Civic, but I can drive the Merc. Oh well, not that I'm complaining. Went over to Van's place after dinner, drove around after that then home. :)