The tingle that it once was,
No longer in the same way.

Faded emotions; angst,
Has it become what I hoped it would?

As night draws near every day,
Never does it fail to replay.

What it is; what it could have been,
Chances taken, chances lost.

Leaving each day to look to the next,
Only to find repititons.

Vastly as thoughts flowed,
Ever so subtly; somthing speaks.

I wished it could be different,
I wished it could change.

I wished for days to pass without confusion,
I wished for days to come with joy.

These lines of words,
They hold emotions and thoughts.

For within the heart of it all,
Is what its all about.

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What a Boy Told a Girl One Day

He told her there wont be any more waiting, there wont be anymore walks. He told her there wouldnt be the meals they had together anymore.

"I dont think I'll be hanging around for quite some time", he said.

"I...I just dont want to feel this way anymore."

He paused for a moment, thinking about what he said.

Would he regret his decision? Maybe.

"Maybe we should stop going to class together...or sitting with each other."

She was lost. Not a single clue about what was going on at all, and as she looked into his eyes, she asked,"Why?"

The boy replied with a deep sigh,"Maybe its for the better. Oh well, maybe you don't quite understand the situation I'm in. Its a battle with myself."

These lines... He never said them to her at all.

Just not yet.

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