i need rest. nose been bleeding for the past two days. its been eventful but good. i found out some things which will help me. i'm rediscovering ME. to be carefree and happy. 2 weeks time. i love you. =)
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do you see the same person in your reflection? i guess not. the same goes for many people out there. we think we see the same person each time we look into the "mirror of our life" but it just isnt the case. though its only human to err and to experience changes for better or for worse, there are those who become so selfish and self centred and feel that the whole world is against them. that different person in them just does not manifest and it brings people hurt. i've been like that myself and it sucks. some others whom i personally know are becoming a shadow of their true self. its sad. it caused conflict and pain. and if it doesnt stop, things are going to crumble and at the end of the day the only reason we can think of is "why did he/she change so much to kill the friendship and the memories we had?". dont let yourself be the catalyst of the negative. i hope u do come to realise that u changed so much that its...
a tribute . eddie guerrero 1967 - 2005. the loss of a stellar performer. my deepest sympathy to his family and to all the fans of this respecte individual. he was one of sheer determination and talent. one of the all time greats of the WWE. in honour of eddie, "we lie, we cheat, we steal." anyway, its happy birthday to joyce. i hope she's alright. jus want her to have a good birthday w/o that hurt and sadness. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCE! hope u will enjoy ur 17th birthday to the fullest.
bulls for sale. hmmm. maybe i'll get one... then i'll let it lose on YOU. fuck. never again will i waste my money and time for ue benefit and have u throw it all away. not say i gave much of a shit abt u in the first place. u dont ever act ur fucking age and ur like the person with the worst character. two faced. i just cant imagine how ungrateful u are. though its your right to do whatever u want with it, i feel u should have a little more RESPECT for those who put in effort to make u smile. u've wasted ur dam life away. truly. im out. bitch.
carved in stone. i guess its too late. i'm sorry i couldnt be the one to push u further. it seems a harsh reality to face but its up to us to decide our own future and carve our life story into a rock. i feel sad for you, and i know the rest do too. don't give up the fight without trying and give urself the confidence to know u can do it. stop thinking negative and it will work wonders. trust me. procrastination gets u no where and i did hope u learnt from my experience. the ill feeling of not making it. but i guess u need to take that same hard road to success.
writings on the wall. O's todae. maths and SS. easy. tmr is gonna be tough. CHEM and history P1. gonna get quarantined for like 4 fucking hours cos paper clash. sian. oh well. im tired. haha but i need to study. once wednesday is over it'll be better. lol. class t shit was totally fucked up. a barcode with a fucking outline and a stupid heading that read: 4E4 2 - 1000 - 5. WTF. fucking wasted 20 fucking bucks for crap. and apparently my design couldnt be used cos the shirt guy had to make a new mould. lame. and ASHER screwed the fucking design up. yes the arrogant guy. now i've got to do editing on the shirt with my twin marker. dumb ass. cant draw still go do the design. and yes he think's he's the greatest at everything with a fucking high pitched squeaky s.o.b voice. ah whatever la. i'll prolly do a nice t shirt for the guys anytime. hmmms maybe i'll go do my own and give it to everybody excep...
a glowing condom. todae was boring. woke up at 11.30. haha started studying right away. then had lunch at home. study study study. chem is mad giving problem. but maths? haha. k la still not too bad. O's on monday sia. still hasnt hit me. thank god im done with most of my revision. im worried for the "small one". the fella really gonna kena. pls pray for him. those that know who the "small one" refers to. sometimes its disappointing to see ur friend on the edge. knowing he/she might just be able to pull through the exams. its scary. well lets jus hope for the best. and btw, for those that thought it was a glowin condom, i bet i got ya fooled. its just an innocent little halogen light bulb. haha. thelove.
choir practice was good. haha. never felt this good in dam long. and after prac had fellowship. dam fun. mad wiping dirty stuff on one another. haha. madness la we all. and caitlyn was mad wiping shit on me. got like 60 % of her sweat on my t shirt. -.- haha but nvm la. she's still young. well now quite tired. haha one whole day of study and music. gonna watch man u game at 3.30. by the time i sleep will be 6 am sia. hahaha. mad and i got to meet my dearest bianca tmr...hope i can wake up. k la dats all for now. 5 to O's 21 to grad nite.
study study study. thats basically it for now till the O's. haha. never felt this good studying. i dunno why. maybe its a new drive in me i guess. haha. oh well anyway todae went back to sch for geog lessons..so basically its not been a holiday week for me..back to sch four times in 5 days...gosh. well nothing much else. wont be bloggin very often for this period. so ya. thats about it for now... you're the light that shines in the dark sky.
okae.. i am back. so..much has happened over the past few days. wont start on that. k so anyway..monday supposed to be holiday BUT, had to go back sch to finsh up dnt. been in sch from 8.30 till 6 plus from mon to todae. super duper tired. haha. but its worth it la..i really like my project and my folio. haha. mad work. oh well...now the dnt year is over. its been great fun. alot of funny moments. oh well.. guess dats about it. back another time i guess.. haha. bye. the.romance.of.two. you.and.me
this post is just the way im feeling. its not meant to hurt anybody. why do i even bother to try so hard when u have your "best" or "good" friend there for you. apparently. every time she is there when both of us are around. i jus feel like u care more about her than u do about me. it feels like ur taking me for granted. do i have to compete with her jus for your care and concern? i know its fucking hard for you to please both sides and i know u care about ur friend...but do u give me as much considerations? why is it always me at fault when an issue arises between ur friend and me? why am i always the one that has to fucking give in? WHY? jus because im willing to change for our benefit? just like the time u told me that she got the job..i knew something like this was gonna happen. and its because im jealous that every fucking day she is working with you. u tell me its different when u are working...but thats not the point. its not gonna make me feel any better abo...
ok so i havent been posting for the past few days. haha really busy. but anyways...just a few things happened la. friday was samantha's birthday...saturday had mock maths exam then played soccer. after that was 4th saturday mass. music was dam power. haha esp the first song. lol. and then sunday had bowling monthly medal which i got 2nd! dam power. usually i screw up so badly. wahahah. then at night went out with bianca to her grandma house..nice meeting her side of the family. after that went back to her house and help her dye hair. and so to today. prelim science practicals today and i did quite ok i think. haha. and as usual..i can never find out what the unknown substance is. its like i can do every step but can never get the unknown substance right. haha. so after that the whole bunch of us kena quaratined for two whole hours..super bloody boring. so ended up discussing teacher's day stuff. after that went to kok yong's house to do some teacher's day thing then pla...
ok so there's no more 100% attendance for karl. HAHA. finally. but quite sad tho. his head went mad. disease hell. but anyway sch went on as per normal...fun asu usual. nth much to say about sch. then...met bianca after sch. and my god. haha. the hair was like whao. fresh new haricut and all. so we went to buy food from cold storage then went back to cook. mad ncie food. that was for our 10th month. hahas. so after the meal went to sleep...then choir prac at night and boy was it one hell of a practice. started off a lil shaky and stuff but after the first practice session..it was time to practice for fourth sat and i went mad on the electric. playing mad rythm all the way...haha. felt dam good. and when i played some funny D chord nobody knew wad the heck it was so nobody sang. haha. and so the night comes to a close. back not long ago and already missing her. tomorrow is 10. haha. BIANCAforlife.
sleepy...tired. haha. nth much else. except that i got to see her todae. so what if it was at work. as long as it with her it makes me smile. =) jus dunno how i can go on without her. sch's the same. lessons bla bla bla..took pictures again. all for class yearbook. and teacer day celebration planning. yup. you're beautiful. its true. #15.