I dont really know if I'm happy with the way things are. The music I'm playing, in this case. Somehow, I feel restricted in SJMM and I wanna do something different. Its kinda stifling at times when all you can do is play the same old songs, play the same style week in week out.

I want something to freshen myself up. I need something that would make me want to play for God even more than now. I need something to draw me closer. Something to make me burn with desire to play better and better.

But I just dont know what i is.

Maybe a change of environment?

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