What does it mean to lose someone you love?
What can it do to you?
What can it make you feel?
What can it make you think of?
What meaning does it bring?
Why must it happen?

To consider the possibility of losing someone forever, is painful. It empties you, so much that you feel a part of you is missing. It feels like that part of you that you treasure so much is being torn away from you. Sometimes it is within your own means to take control of the situation, sometimes its not.

How do you let go of something you have, yet at the same time, you know you cant have it because, you're just not ready. You fear for a lack of happiness, you fear for the lack of reciprocation. You fear for life.

When it comes to life and death, how do you come to terms with it. You see him lying there, on the hospital bed, tubes in his throat and a life support machine. You may never be able to imagine the pain. As you stand by the bedside, you hold his hand. You feel the warmth, knowing there's life and love. You know that your presence is felt. You know it is appreciated. A gentle squeeze is all it takes to reaffirm that, no matter how strong or weak. You want to cry but you know that you need to be strong, you know that being strong will be best for everything.

People say, "focus on the solution, not the problem." What is the solution to life? Every beat of his heart, every breath. You stand there watching, hoping, praying. You look to your phone, and then you begin to think, "Why should this happen to me?" You face the possibility of losing not just a person, but people.

Losing a friend, is just like losing a loved one. The seemingly innocuous road of life, could have just possibly taken a sharp u-turn. You prepare yourself for the worst if you lose him, if he goes back to his maker, but would it be a load to heavy to lose a friend as well?

A sad a post as it may seem, a realist wrote it.

"If every tear had a price, I'd be rich by now."

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